Its been a long time. A year since a genuinely written post. My reason is singular… true weakness, wherein God enables us to boast in his strength, doesn’t lend itself well to talking much, or writing.
Ironically, in the silence, I have come to believe much of what I have written about in the past – that I am not a strong Christian, but that I am a student, teacher and preacher of a strong gospel that I have only ever known or wanted to know in the depth of my weaknesses.
Now, I will write again. I will reflect again. It will be much shorter, much less performance.
May my writing about your/my struggles in a broken world of pain – and the necessity of our turning to a strong gospel in the wilderness – not be a pursuit of experiencing some … err … cathartic literary strength. No more.
Check back. I will write more. I needed to walk away to walk back.
I needed to walk into the weaknesses of my life, into the weaknesses of the church I pastor, into the weaknesses of my family in this materialistic, obsessive, lustful culture. And when I did, I found that true weakness sobers. But apparently that shouldn’t silence ones calling so much as solidify it. Sobriety is the only angle from which to really speak about weakness and the renewing strength of the gospel. As Paul said to Timothy:
The time is coming when people will not endure sound teaching, but having itching ears they will accumulate for themselves teachers to suit their own passions, and will turn away from listening to the truth and wander off into myths. As for you, always be sober minded, endure suffering, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry.
So apparently sobriety, suffering and a messy familial and pastoral ministry is the look of God’s renewal in this broken world; that is, until sobriety is replaced with shouting when all has been made new and totally RIGHT by God the Father, Son and Holy Spirt.
Yeah. That’s a bit more honest than some winsome wordiness about weakness.
So maybe we should talk about it again…